Cassie Gordon

While I like to make light of things to keep myself sane, it’s hard to make light of how difficult being chronically ill really is. The reality is that daily brain fog and fatigue plague me so badly that my brain refuses to function normally. It’s heartbreaking to recognize the cognitive decline in your own mind when you know you’re smarter and more creative than this. I feel like I’m imprisoned in my own body, unable to do what I want. I have to carefully plan my energy expenditure throughout the day, down to showering. Sometimes I don’t shower because I don’t have enough energy. Even baking a loaf of bread is taxing, brushing my teeth, exercising, eating, etc. Everything that I used to do with ease and without much thought now takes careful planning. Most of my days are now spent taking care of my health, and, by that, I mean eating healthy, exercising, and resting.

My creative brain has gotten antsy. I’m still working slowly on my newest book series. My wish is to continue writing for my entire life, but it’s difficult on the emotions when your brain doesn’t cooperate. It’s like my brain has gone south for the winter and never returned. How am I supposed to write without a brain? Well, I know God has a plan for everything, and I trust He’s at work, even now. I know His plans for me are good. So while my current situation seems like a bummer, God has a bigger plan in the works for my life and writing career. I still feel led to serve the Lord through writing, so I know He’ll get my brain back if that’s His plan.

In the mean time, thank you all for your patience. I very much want to be writing new stories and spitting out books enough to make my own library, but I have to be patient too. Survival is more important than working right now.

Take care of your health, everyone: spiritually, mentally, physically, socially, and emotionally.

Sincerely,

Cassie